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October 2nd, 2010

Happy Trumps Smart

by Johanna Harness

A few days ago I re-posted an essay I wrote almost a year ago:  Energy. The basic premise set forth there has been guiding my life since I started writing seriously almost two years ago.

As I trimmed and prepared that entry for inclusion on my new web site, I had to ask myself:

How am I doing?

And you know what?  Not bad. I’m doing okay. But, honestly? I’ve been letting a lot of things on my hate-to-do list crowd forward and stress me out.

I need more days like the one in the picture here–exploring the Wonderful Weird that makes up my world.  This carving is a lion marking the original Fort Boise.  I think he looks like a giant beaver-lion who might affectionately and accidentally hurt you.  He makes me happy.

So why am I not spending more time simply being happy? After some soul-searching, I have to admit I know.  And I’ve known for some time.

Somewhere in the back of my mind, I’ve been keeping the list of things that make me a good author, a good writer, a marketable writer–and I’ve been measuring myself against that list, always focusing on my inadequacies.

When I started writing, I broke a big rule.  I did this mostly because I did not know there was a Big Rule.  My mistake?  I fell in love with a series character. I wrote my first book and, high on the experience, I wrote the second.  I was halfway through my third when I started reading the many posts advising writers that this was a waste of time and energy.  The reasoning was solid and logical:  if the first book doesn’t sell, you’ve put all your time and energy into a whole string of books that won’t sell.

So I stopped.

The story was still written on my heart, but it wasn’t smart to write it.

I spent three months working up other ideas and grieving.  I even wrote a contemporary middle grade novel with characters I love.  But yeah, not as much as I love my series character.

When I went to my first conference this past summer, I went there prepared to pitch my middle grade novel.  That’s me, doing the smart thing with my career. I had a couple luke-warm requests, but more suggestions for improvements than anything else.  That’s fine.  Farther from my heart, it’s easy to make changes.

And yet, somewhere along the way, I started talking to agents about Claire Morgane again.  As soon as I did, everyone asked for pages.  That’s me, being happy, not smart. How many more rejections did I need to get for this novel?

In the couple weeks between conferences, I revised my middle grade work, preparing to pitch it.  That’s me, being smart. My MG is a stand-alone.  It has a tight focus.  It’s a really good, little book.  It’s the responsible child of my novel creation.  I know it will get into print eventually because it’s just good.

But it’s also done. I can sell it now or I can sell it five years from now or ten years from now–and it doesn’t really matter. There’s simply no hurry.

So you know what I did, right? Yeah, I prepared for two weeks to pitch that MG novel and then I went back to my next conference and I talked about Claire.  More requests.

My rejections for Claire are funny.

The rejections for my middle grade submission are all about the market and whether there’s room on the shelf.  My rejections for Claire are always about Claire.  She’s not what people expect to see.  I get long rejections that are emotional reader responses to the story and then one line at the end that says, “oh I don’t think I can market this.”  And I also get rejections from people who I picture tipping their heads as they write, “huh?” or, you know, the professional equivalent.

I did meet an agent at one conference who connected with the creative spark in me. I sent my Claire manuscript and received a different kind of rejection, one that said, “I can’t represent this yet.”  We talked on the phone about revisions and all the things she suggested made sense to me.  She wasn’t looking for a different book; she wanted me to improve the book I’d written.

I spent a month revising and I’ve resubmitted, but I have no idea what kind of response I’ll get.  It’s such a big revision and it feels distinctly possible that the story is too much changed from the manuscript I originally submitted.  Of course, I also worried my beta readers would hate this new version too–and all responses have been overwhelmingly positive.  So who knows?

I let manuscript requests sit while I worked on the revision and they’re all sent now too.  I’ve received a couple rejections that made me giggle.  Or they made Claire giggle anyway and her laughter filled my head.

Because here’s the thing: after spending a month with Claire, she’s back in my head.

And on my list of things that give me energy, writing Claire’s story is right up there at the top.  So you know what?

 

Happy trumps smart.

I’m following my heart.  I can’t turn away again.  And I’m so incredibly happy.

 

So where does happy lead me?

 

  • I updated Claire’s website:  http://www.clairemorgane.com
  • I’m directing my enthusiasm for Claire to readers rather than agents.
  • I posted my first Claire short story on her website.  I will add more.  These are not excerpts.  They’re stand-alone stories from her world.

 

Why?

 

  • Because it makes me happy.
  • Because being happy makes my life better and it makes the lives of those around me better.
  • Because I love this character and I really believe others will love her too.
  • Because I don’t need an agent to have an audience. Agents want writers with an audience. It’s not their job to create one for me. It’s not the publisher’s job.

I create my own world and see who shows up for the party.

 

You’re all invited.

I can’t promise there won’t be heartache, but I promise there will be happy along the way.

September 26th, 2010

Energy

by Johanna Harness

Today @JKFlick asked me, “How do you have all the time/energy to do all you do?”  Her question reminded me of a similar question asked last December, which prompted a blog entry I’m re-posting here.  None of us can do everything, of course, but we all can do things that impact our energy.  Here is the original post from December 4, 2009:

Energy

The first thing I tell anyone, no matter what dream they’re following, is to quit making your dream a chore.  Do not try to punish yourself into submission, thinking you’re going to write more through making yourself submit to a schedule you don’t want to keep.

When you do things you hate all the time, you lose energy.  If you make writing into one more item on your hate-to-do list, all is lost.

So, you know, Don’t Do That.  If you’re looking at your clock and flicking a rubber band on your wrist every time you quit writing and people ask you about the strange welts on a regular basis, Don’t Do That.  Okay?  Yeah?  Don’t.  Do.  That.

So what do you do?  If you want more time in your day, figure out the things that give you energy. Too often we fall into the trap of thinking energy is the same thing as time.  It’s not.

We think in terms of schedules and clocks.  I get x amount of sleep, get up the next morning and get x amount of hours before I sleep again.  Bleah.  No.

You get life. And into that life you pour all your hopes and dreams and all the best you have for those around you.  And you accept the love and support of others.  And you may have to do things you don’t want to do, but you minimize those things and you tackle those monsters with leftover energy from all the things you love and enjoy.

Yes, I really said “leftover energy.” I did.  Don’t go away.  Come back and listen.

I don’t know what gives you energy.  You have to figure that out.  And when I say you have to figure that out, I mean you MUST figure that out.  Sit down and make a list of things that suck all your energy and leave you feeling horrible.  Acknowledge that some of those things are people.  Then make a list of the things that give you energy.  These things are the basis of your life.  They are the basis of everything you should be doing in your life.

The eye-opener for me, when I first did this, was that I couldn’t think of a single thing that gave me energy. Know why?  Because I’d turned all the things I love into items on my hate-to-do list.  If you’ve done this, you may need some time to think.  (BTW, if you put “making a list of things that give me energy” on your hate-to-do list, that’s not a good sign.)

The things that give you energy include characters, plot, and setting.  Acknowledge the people, the activities, and the places that make you feel energized and happy. Leave the grumpy people and the hated activities and the places you hate off the list, even if you feel guilty about it.  Be honest.  You’ll still tend to those things, but you’ll do it with leftover energy.

The picture I chose for this blog entry is one of my energy pictures.  Bustling crowds drain me.  Open spaces fill me up.  My family is sitting there on the rock.  After a day of hiking (energy +) with people I love (energy +) we ate a healthy lunch (energy +) and then my husband took the kids on an extra hike (support= energy +) so I could open my notebook and write (energy +).

It was a very full day and I came home with the energy to tackle monsters.  I took my hate-to-do list and slashed through it in record time.  And then I had energy to write more which gave me more energy.

You’re seeing the pattern?  It’s not about time.  It’s about energy. If you have energy, you will be more productive in the same amount of time.  You’ll be more productive than you’ve ever been in your life.

And how do you get more energy?  You follow your dreams.

You see?  Yeah?  It’s not about forcing anything on yourself.  There’s no resistance.  You’re actually going with your energy flow instead of fighting it. When I started doing this, I slept better and I needed less sleep.  How freakishly amazing is that?

Even my relationships became more solid.  If you’re putting time into your family and resenting not having time for yourself, you’re being unproductive with your love.  That sounds funny, doesn’t it?  But you know what?  People love being around you when you’re happy. And you know what else?  When you’re doing the things that give you energy, people gravitate toward you because you give them energy.  You change your environment so everyone around you is happier and more productive.  It’s magic.

And the really screwy, amazing thing about all this is that it’s easy. Maybe that’s why we miss it.  Here are the steps:

Figure out the things that give you energy.
Do those things.

If writing is a dream, writing should be one of those things that makes you enjoy the rest of your life more.  Respect your need for writing.  Take it seriously.

I get up early to write because that’s when my house is quiet.  It’s much easier to change my own habits than to change the habits of others. Most days I start writing at 5AM.  If I know I need an extra hour of alone time, I start writing at 4AM.  I keep my mornings simple: clothes, coffee, #amwriting chat until I’m awake, write.

An amazing thing happens when I start my day with writing.  Okay so you already know what it is now.  More energy.  More productivity.  And suddenly:  more time.

Most of us who write have other gigs in our lives, whether that’s a full time job, full time child or parent care, health issues, job searches.  The list goes on and on.  I homeschool my kids.  I double majored in English & Psychology, earned an MA in English Literature and then later went back for an MEd.  I taught college classes for over ten years and loved it.   It took a lot of work to figure out how to rearrange our family life so we could collectively follow the dream of homeschooling.  Homeschooling gives me energy.  I love teaching my kids.  When they get up in the mornings, my writing time turns into their learning time.

But you know, sometimes there are lulls in my work day.  When I’m full of energy, I can make good use of 5-10 minutes of time.

I know writers on #amwriting who write early in the morning and then pull out their laptops at lunch.  I know writers who write entire manuscripts on trains, subways, busses–during their commuting time!  I’m willing to bet that very few did this because it was on their hate-to-do list.

So much of making good use of your sit-down writing time has to do with making good use of your bits and pieces of time. Learn to cluster your ideas during those few minutes before your kid’s game starts.  Carry a set of notecards in your bag and phase draft bits of your plot while you’re waiting in line.  Scribble more.  Run through character dialog while you’re making dinner.  Observe things and ask yourself, “what would my character think of that?”

If you take advantage of all the spare minutes in your day, if you focus on things that give you energy, you will be more productive in the time you set aside for yourself. If you only get two hours a week, if you only get lunch hours, if you only get commuting time, prepare so that the words are bottled up and ready to flow as soon as your fingers hit the keyboard.

It’s not about finding more time in your day. It’s about creating more energy in your life.  Be a little crazy, live with abandon, and have fun!


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